My dear readers, I apologise for my absence. Sometimes it feels that no matter how hard I try to create order in my life, the universe is determined to create chaos. So, just to say that Cerberus and I have been in a bit of a wrestling match over the last few weeks, but as usual, I came out the victor. Many people are not as lucky, and my heart goes out to them. Ironically, I think Cerberus has never won because of my people-pleasing nature… I always think of the person who would have to find me and who has to deal with what I left behind, and me. Never thinking of myself, not even at my lowest, I guess.
Sorry for the sad start, but that is not what is on my mind today. Today, I am thinking of the saying about building castles in the sky, and then, sometimes, painting them inevitably comes in as well. Lately, that is something I am experiencing. Maybe it is a midlife crisis feeling that I did not achieve what I could have. Maybe it is fear that there are only 20 years left to accumulate for my golden years of retirement.
I keep waking up with dreams of products, apps, or things that would make life easier for me, which means they should make someone else’s life easier. The problem is that I am too busy and too tired to teach myself to explore the new ways of doing business plans and business funding proposals. Many of them regarding tech I know nothing about, I have a basic understanding but not a great understanding, and I feel like the year has already run over me like those big breaking waves at Supertubes at Jeffreys Bay in South Africa.
If you have ever seen the surfing competitions at Supertubes, you will understand what I am talking about. That is my ultimate place of relaxation and calm. Because when you sit on the beach there, and you can literally hear and feel the power of the ocean even sitting on the beach, while running millions of grains of sand through your fingers, you KNOW God exists. If you are a Christian in that moment, you realise the God who is able to create the universe made you the person you are. Unique. With all your quirks and illnesses, the best part is that He thinks you are fantastic. It is an amazing feeling. I don’t debate the existence of God; I have felt the Holy Spirit and been healed from near death when the doctors gave up, so do not try to debate with me.
Maybe to be the best dreamer I can be, I need to go to my happy place and keep dreaming. After all, if I am into clichés at this point…. Every day is a gift; that is why it is called the present. My dear readers, I think today was just one of those days when everything pent up needed to get out, but hopefully it touched you. I think the blog’s time is numbered, as I won’t be renewing it at the end of this subscription, but I am going to try and build this castle in the cloud and paint it while I can. So today, go out and build a “sandcastle” in the clouds – make a tiny dream come true, because life is not about the number of breaths you take but about the number of moments that take your breath away.
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