My Black Dog Living
My story on fighting my black dog daily and keeping on winning
About me
25 years of black dog living under my belt. I have seen every counsellor, psychiatrist and psychologist you can imagine.
In the end there are just a few important things that will get your from fighting to get to start the day, to fighting to stop reaching your goals and believing everything is possible.
1. Faith
2. Understand that the world will not change for you, you must adapt to the world
3. You are already enough
4. Find a friend who understands the journey, because if you have never dealt with the black dog, you just don’t get it.
5. You have the power to change your life. you just have to choose it
Category: Depression
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I wake up in the morning. I am exhausted. I check my watch’s sleep score. It is pathetic. I rarely reach a score above 50 these days. I don’t know if I should doubt the accuracy of the watch or make peace with what I have been denying for so long now. Cerberus has fully…
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When you are a child you are told to make a wish upon a shooting star because it is a special event. Unfortunately as with most things in life as you grow up, you realise that a shooting star is nothing more than a meteor burning up in earth’s atmosphere. Now in life, some of…
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There is a book by Caroline Myss that I have been meaning to read, which deals with sacred contracts in a person’s life. My psychologist once said that the universe will continuously place you in the same situation or relationship until you have learned the specific lesson you need to learn. I never believed this…
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I started 2026 with incredible hopes for the year, for my depression, health, weight and overall self management. Well, my dearest readers, I can only say that this past Friday was my lowest point in almost five years. With my black dog, Cerberus, firmly on my shoulders due to the gods of chaos running around…
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My dear readers, I apologise for my absence. Sometimes it feels that no matter how hard I try to create order in my life, the universe is determined to create chaos. So, just to say that Cerberus and I have been in a bit of a wrestling match over the last few weeks, but as…
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Journaling…. I never believed in the value of writing down what is in your head and heart to let it out. I always thought keeping things where they are was the best place for them, because, well, the only people that ever seemed to want to listen to what was inside were those you paid…
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This morning I realised with a shock that my summer holiday is basically over. I feel rested, but the thought of heading back to the world of professional chaos is enough to have me on day 5 of continuous headaches. Varying between migraine level and just an annoyance level, throbbing. Of course my last weekend…
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Well my dearest readers, I have just about emerged from the above cloud of smoke from the sage that I burned to get rid of the bad juju from 2025. I don’t know about you but I have no idea what the heck that was. All I know is may it not it the words…
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And so the year of work has all but come to a stand-still. The late nights, the blood, sweat and tears to keep pushing myself to be the best that I can be and beyond that, while reminding myself to never ever again make my self-esteem and self-worth dependent on my work. This was one…
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Dear readers, I konw I have been absent for some time. I am very sorry for that. But I am sure as depression survivors you know that during the battles with your black dog, life becomes a daily struggle. The things you enjoy most, lose their appeal. The people and those dearest to you suffer…